Today my
bicycle was stolen and it took me a few hours
to stabilise myself and to focus on the things that I had planned that
day and so this post is specifically to assist me in dealing with unexpected
events in my reality.
When I
realised that there had been a deliberate robbery, I felt an energy of anger
growing within me against whoever had taken it, against society as a whole and
against the economic system that promotes survival. It helped to go out and run
to keep moving myself and slow down the mind. The tendency was to look at every
single bicycle hoping to find mine but whenever the energetic emotion of anger
and sadness came up, I stopped the thought, I breathed and reminded me that I
am not defined by this situation of being a victim of theft.
This was the
second time it happened, however now I have the tools to deal with the
emotional turmoil that comes with such an experience. I noticed how my thoughts
were being contaminated by this experience of disappointment and distrust
towards society, and that my mind was projecting such emotions to other areas
of my life, which was unacceptable. How can my experience of anger influence my
attitude towards other things that I am doing? Why do I accept becoming the
emotions and therefore believing that whatever I do will get contaminated by
it? Well, in reality I now see that I am the thoughts and emotions that I
accept within me. That is also why it was no surprise that suddently I was
distrusting my ability to deal with other areas of my life, because my distrust
towards the outer world was firstly existing inside me.
In fact, all these emotional waves are dependent on whatever I do with
them - either I feed them to continue the victim personality or I let them go.
Letting them go does not mean to forget them but to simply use this memory as a
remembrance to learn from: for example, to be more careful when locking my bike
or to consider a bike chip. Well, bicycle theft is not a good example
considering that it is quite hard to prevent these: no matter how good one's
lock is, in the UK a bicycle is stolen every minute and less than 5% of
those are returned to their owners (Bikeoff.org). Nevertheless, preventing my
emotional reaction is completely my own resonsibility.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to build up the emotion of anger
within me when facing an unexpected event such as bike theft.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to take this incident personally
and to think that someone had done this deliberately to make me anger.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to blame another for the anger I
create/participate within me.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to project the anger and the
sadness into other areas of my life and to fear that unexpected events affect
other areas of my life.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use this event to feed other
emotions within me such as fear.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to stabilise myself and to
resume my plans of the day realising that thinking about what happened and
trying to look for the bicycle was not going to stabilise me.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of
self-distrust when facing a situation of feeling distrust towards the society
we live in. In this, I realise that this generalisation is not supportive and I
am aware that the current system promotes such separation among the people when
in fact it is not necessary nor real, as we are all one and equal.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to look at this point in
common sense, do what needs to be done in terms of reporting the burglary and
then continue with tasks.
When and as
I see myself trying to justify the feeling of sadness within me based on the
memory of today's events, I stop and I breathe.
When and as
I see myself feeling anger and feeding this feeling within me when I face an
unexpected event that imply something being stolen from me, I stop the
emotional build-up, I breathe and assist me to fully stabilise my presence.
When and as
I see myself projecting the anger unto the people around me and unto society as
a whole, I stop the thoughts and I breathe. I see, realise and understand that
I am the only one creating this experience to myself and feeding the emotion
within me. I also see, realise and understand that any scenarios/projections
unto other areas of my life are not real and are unnecessary since these are
images fed by emotions such as fear.
When and as
I see myself going into the turmoil of emotions that are manifested in the way
I start questioning everything and distrusting everyone in my reality, I stop
and I breathe.
When and as
I see myself getting obecessed with the emotions and distracting myself from
the other responsibilities in my day, I stop and I breathe. I assist me in
learning from this experience and to use this as a remembrance to be more
effective in stopping the energy within me and to allow myself to dedicate my
time to my responsibilities.
When and as I see myself believing that it is OK to be emotionally overwhelmed by situations like this, I stop and I breathe.
When and as I see myself judging the time that I am spending in dealing with this point as pointless, I stop and I breathe. I see, realise and understand that I am dealing with a point that is here and that this is an opportunity to re-establish my self-stability and to re-start in every breath, fresh and in complete self-will to correct myself and to give me direction.
I see,
realise and understand that the time spent in the mind of emotions, thoughts
and projections is time that I miss of my creation here.
I commit
myself to let go of the emotion of anger as I see that it does not assist me to
see the situation in common sense and in being practical about the things to do
in order to deal with the events in my reality effectively and in self-support.
