Day 145: Stress or Self - Why do we get sick on holiday

I have heard stories of people getting sick on holiday and this might be a common episode for many, especially for those working in the world system. I have investigated this point by myself as it is the second time that I get an infection in my body while on holiday and in my case this is related to stress.

Living in constant state of stress is not the only way I can live. In fact, after spending almost three weeks on holiday in a stress-free environment I am seeing the benefits of not indulging into the stress energy: I have been sleeping better, feeling no friction in my belly after meals, feeling relaxed and more aware of my physical body and my surroundings. At the same time, I am now facing the side effects of the "decompression".

After my first week on holiday I suddenly started with an intense tooth pain caused by an infection in a tooth treated last month that was still weak.  It is interesting to see how the weakspot that already existed in me had been affected on a physical level by the change of lifestyle and environment - in fact, the reduction of my stress levels simply allowed the consequences to playout, meaning, the pain that I was feeling was the consequence of the accumulated stress (and its toxins) in my body for a long period of time that manifested in my weakspot when I stopped the stress cycle on holiday. Last year I also experienced pain and sickness after the first week - my weak point by that time was my stomach - and my homeopath also confirmed how the body cells react to cortisol (the stress hormone) in the digestive system which creates discomfort after eating, among other effects.

Since then I have been more aware of the stress point and this has been a chapter of my process of self-investigation with the tools of self-forgiveness, breathing, self-awareness, self-corrective statements and real-time application. For those facing a similar experience, I found the Self-Living webinars on how to be successful without stress very helpful and with practical examples. What I have been realising is that the process of changing myself is not some wishful thinking or prayer-based theory because change is a physical application where I change my behaviour in real time for and by myself.

Both last year and this year I got assistance and recovered from the pain but the question is: Do I want to get sick and pain every time I go on holiday? How can I prevent the consequences of stress and, more importantly, how can I prevent stress from taking over my physical body and being?

The answer is in the realisation that whatever happens to me is a result of my acceptances and allowances, meaning, stress exists within me because I have accepted it in my life. So the challenge ahead is to investigate and understand how I generate the stress energy and why. Let me start by asking me: Can I wake up and get up without any energetic rush? Can I do my daily job without going into exhaustion? Am I able to walk from point A to B in a constant pace without running or rushing? 
By simply opening up these points I can see already certain memories from childhood popping up in my mind - for example, the constant rush against the clock that I saw my parents living in, my curiosity in typing and speaking very fast just like I saw adults doing, the idea that running from one place to another is an indicator that I am doing something relevant and that being busy is a sign of being good at what I am doing. It is no surprise that my expression and movements can easily get boosted by the energetic emotion of stress. I can see that that which I have believed to be an effective way of dealing with things is actually a limitation because the stress energy is limited in its attention spam and life spam - our body cannot simply cope with stress levels for an extensive period of time without the physical consequences. So now the question is: How can I work, study and do all the things that I must do without doing it in stress or getting stressed by it? Who am I and how is my self-expression without stress?

 

The sooner I see that the stress and pain that I am causing to myself is only my responsibility, the obvious response will be that I am also able to prevent such self-abuse, right? I mean, there isn't anyone saying to me 'you go to be stressed', or 'you got to have a stressful lifestyle' - so why do I impose such ideas onto my own self? In this regard, I am looking at patterns of my own accepted thoughts, ideas and beliefs in the conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind. I will start by forgiving the thoughts that I am aware of and then new points will open up. Self-Forgiveness is an ice-breaker to deconstruct the ideas that I have imposed unto myself and it assists me to know myself in self-honesty, humbleness and egolessness.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in the stress energy when I face many tasks in my day instead of dealing with my tasks in complete stability and in self-trust.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to create the emotional state of stress by thinking that I will not be able to complete my task on time. In this, I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my own self and my self-direction by participating in the fear of not being able to complete a task on time.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to relax on a daily basis but instead believe that I can only relax on holiday and, based on that, create my own physical and mental exhaustion during the majority of the time that I am not on holiday.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am better or more efficient if I move myself in stress. I see that my definition of stress implies doing things fast however doing things fast and well do not imply stress necessarily. In fact, I am realising that when I am not emotionally stressed I am more open to communicate with others and to be more creative in my approach to things.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to go into stress and inner panic when I am faced with a short notice task or when things don't go as planned / expected.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to project my anxiety towards another and blame the other for not helping me instead of slowing down and asking for help in a constructive way.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need the stress energy and the pressure of being late in order to move myself quickly and to make quick decisions.

In my next article I will publish my self-corrective statements as part of my commitment to change my patterns of behaviour, from automated response to self-created movement. 

Suggested video on Less Stress More Success: https://selfandliving.com/p/less-stress-more-success