While typing
the title of this blog, I realised how comic in fact this whole projection is:
how can I blame someone for my own interpretation of their words? Why do I go
into a reaction when the other person doesn't do what I expect to be done?
Isn't this an experience that I create in myself? How come can I expect another
to know my expectations and my
relationships to words and therefore expect that they would say things and do
things in a way that does not cause me any reaction? Isn't it common sense that
it is my responsibility to stop the projections and to start purifying the
words within me? Is it not the case that I can learn with another and the other
can learn from me? I will therefore walk the point of taking another's words
and actions personally:
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to feel angry internally when
someone does not do that which I expect and think should be done.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to create this experience of
anger within me which is a point of separation inside-out. I realise that I am
responsible for my own anger because I am the one creating such experience
within me based on the belief that this is how things should be/work.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have the right
to be angry at another, which is based on the belief of righteousness.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to let the reaction go and to
be patient with another being as I like people to be patient with me.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to stop the mind in these
moments and to allow myself to breathe slowly until I calm myself down and
prevent the reaction/consequence.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to realise that the
resistance to slow down and breathe is a defense mechanism of the mind to keep
the energy building up within me.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to believe that if things don't
go as I planned it means that something is going to go wrong. I forgive myself
for having accepted and allowed myself to imagine/create/antecipate images of
what can go wrong.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pattern of
self-punishment based on the feeling of guilt when things don't go as I think
they should go.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to react towards my own
mind/imagination, instead of realising that I am accumulating this energetic
experience and it requires me to be disciplined to STOP the ball, to breathe
and to give me direction in that moment outside of my imagination, moving me in
self-stability, one and equal to the other being.
I forgive
myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to help me in these moment of
energetic emotions and to support me in seeing the common sensical thing to do
- either in communicating with another what would be a best practice or to ask
to another what he/she is doing.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to assume that I know what the other
is doing and to believe that I know what is going to happen based on the
starting point that things will go wrong.
I forgive
myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in the back chat
of the mind which is this conversation within me, the convictions, the
assumptions and the answers in my mind that are pure imagination.
Self-corrective
statements
I realise
that currently my relationships and
interactions with other beings manifest the various patterns that I became and
therefore this is my opportunity to walk these points and change myself.
When and as
I see myself looking at another's action and thinking that she/he is doing it
wrong, I stop the thought and I breathe. Instead of being a zombie observer, I
commit myself to either help the other if needed or to do what I am doing and
focus on my own actions (being an example to myself).
When and as
I see myself fearing that the other person will drop something based on the
starting point that if it was me I would be more careful, I stop and I breathe.
I realise that I can only be careful with my actions and that thinking about
the other as not careful is a point of separation. Therefore, I support myself
to stand stable with another and to trust the other as myself. I realise that
this projection actually shows me that I am the one not trusting myself in
every moment and that I am accepting to distract me from myself entertained
with thoughts about the others.
When and as
I see myself participating in the patterns of righteousness towards another
person, I stop and I breathe. I realise that my idea of how things work is
based on my own experiences and that I cannot impose unto another - by bringing
this point to myself, I realise that I am the one who believes that I must obey
to another and do what I am told without considering what is the best thing to
do, and this is the justification as to why I
tend to react when the other does not obey me! Within this realisation,
I commit myself to stop wanting to control the other person, stop wanting to
impose and to stop being a slave of my own mind. I realise that what I see in
another also exists within me so I take this opportunity to stop accepting and
allowing me to be a slave or desiring to have slaves doing what are told. I
realise that all of us have much more to gain if we communicate with each other
to come to an agreement of what is the best thing to do, as equals, rather then
competing with ideas, minds and egos.
When and as
I see myself taking another person's actions or words personally as an offense
or as disobedience, I stop and I breathe. I slow the mind and I slow the
thoughts about the other in order to allow me to focus on me, as to what I am
allowing within my own thoughts. I realise that if I have a reaction towards
specific words or voice tonality then I must investigate within me where is the
reaction coming from, forgiving the memories that keep me separated from being
here, stable in the present moment. At the same time, I realise that thinking
that the other is doing something just to annoy me is a manifestation of
paranoia and inferiority, therefore, I help me by stopping these thoughts and
correcting me in my relationships to the other people, allowing me to stand
equal to another, not superior or inferior.
When and as
I see myself participating in the imagination and belief that I know that
another's intentions are malicious, I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to
stand accountable for my own thoughts and look at my starting point in
real-time in order to stop the cycle and not feeding the mind.
When and as
I see myself thinking that things will go wrong if things are done differently
from what I believe should be, I stop and I breathe. I realise that the
starting point of the plan was based on
my imagination, previous experience and judgments, instead of considering the
best for all and common sense. I realise that changes to the plan is not
necessarily a bad thing or that imply any punishment. I realise that it is my
responsibility to make the best I can and be constantly correcting my actions
in order to do things perfectly as the best for all.
I commit
myself to focus on who I am in my relationship and interaction with another and
I support me to be stable, equal to the other, in self-honesty, self-trust,
steadfast in my own actions while open to another's solutions, looking at
things in common sense and treating the other as I like to be treated.
There has
been this constant backchat of self-defeat: "I can never do what I have
planned to do", based on the assumption that time is too short for my
things - is time too short or am I exhausting it with many plans and little
action? If I spend time in the mind in thinking what I will do, I am already
creating the experience of not corresponding to the mind, because real things
take real time. It is supportive to take notes of tasks to do but more than that is daydreaming - I am more productive if I start the actions, rather than thinking about it. 
