Day 25: I am a full-time job!

In some moments when I am in total breath-awareness I realise that this IS real - I am real - my movement IS real, time IS here and I AM HERE. This happened last week when I was going up the stairs in my room --- it was weird. I was walking because I was moving my body. I was making a sound because I was speaking. Nothing could stop me from walking.
In fact, I am the only one that stops myself really. Therefore I am the one that allows me to be here! So if I direct myself to walk the talk, I am pushing myself to walk in self-honesty, considering that this 'talk' is self-honest, supportive for me and for others. 

This is where the backchats come up. The thoughts are my biggest limitation. When I am of the mind, I am not aware of the movement and I am a robot: eating for the sake of eating, walking, reacting,... This is the secret mind - who I believe I am or I need to behave accordingly - just an amount of ideas, definitions and beliefs accumulated throughout time... An imense invisible ocean that polutes the air I breathe.
Considering this realisations through my personal experience (by following the backchats I end up repeating patterns and I miss-the-takes) I decided to take on the Desteni I Process. It has been the only education that provides me the practical tools to deal with myself, my thoughts, fears, emotions, always in self-responsibility - no one to blame.

It brought me the awareness that I am my full-time job! Since the moment I wake up, till I go to bed and even while dreaming, I am always dealing with myself -- self-honesties, self-dishonesties, transcendencies, patterns, mirrors, projections,... -- and the Process takes the 'glasses' out = for me to see what is really going on: both inside and outside me. By taking self-responsibility for me, I am being self-responsible within my participation in the world. Can you imagine if everyone were to take self-responsibility for each one's acts? What a real commitment and respect for everyone's lives!
It is a big challenge because much of the information around me ends by distracting me from myself. Each one is in its own bubble and there is no time and willingness to meet the 'other' in self-honesty.
Regarding the news for example, it became an enormous distraction -- watching things on the tv makes the problem seem to be far way, when in fact the same issue is possibly happening in our own houses. And yes! It is as important as the problem on tv! One has to deal with it, one has to be strong and trust oneself to overcome it.  
Everyone is equally important! We are all full-time beings, full-time alive! 
This is now applied to my direction and to look at who I have become to correct to who I want to be for the best of me and for everyone. I say 'who I have become' because it is just impossible to ignore the realisation that who I am is a result of the society and surroundings around me --- what I say, what I speak uffffff I became a sponge! Now I see that I have to be more like a filter --- not everything in the media supports me, not everything that was taught to me is beneficial to the life on the planet, not everything that people tell me is self-honest and so on...

So this is the challenge ahead of us. Making sure that we are the best we can be in this job called LIFE.
... breathing in self-awareness in every moment is a BIG challenge/change.

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