DAY 109: Slowing down my mind [my Journey at the farm]

Today is my third night in South Africa, where I will be living over the next month. One point that requires my attention is the rush in my mind that I easily participate in, almost never allowing me to slow down and give me direction without any mind-stress. I can also see how I have been playing this mind-mode under the excuse that is the London's way of life, when it is actually my responsibility to change myself and my interaction with/in reality.

Being physical with other animals here at the farm has been very cool, particularly with the dogs and the horses. The dogs are always up for playing and I enjoy myself running around, doing tricks with the ball, hugging them and play without looking at the time.


My schedules changed completely and in these first days it was weird to have so much time to dedicate myself to my process: for example, I see a point within me and I can write about it in that moment, or I decide to listen to an interview and I do it in the next minutes, or I have a chat with another person, or I simply lay down to rest or read a blog.
 

Now that I have rested from the long trip, I am starting to help in the common activities, such as taking care of the horses in the morning and in the afternoon. Today I helped with cleaning the stable, preparing the horse's bed, the food, checking his temperature and looking for ticks in his hair. Interacting with a big animal like a horse really requires my full awareness so no time wasted in the mind. I must be aware of my physical presence as well as his presence, to make sure that I am safe and he is OK with me. A cool example is to check where my feet are next to the horse! I am not yet totally comfortable alone with the horse in the stable and I do see points that require correction through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so I will walk these.

I have been attending the live recordings of the Eqafe interviews daily and I can relate to many of the experiences I have within me and the points that I am walking in my Life. It is really supportive to take notes while listening to it, which is something that I don't usually do it London as I listen to the interviews on the crowded tube, but that I will try to do when I am back. Whenever I listen to a new interview I think that everyone in the world would benefit immensely from listening to it too… 

So while at the farm, I am giving myself the time to ground myself, to stabilise myself, to expand my self-trust and to learn new ways of doing things and of seeing this world in common sense.