I realise that the energetic fear of failing and the constant
need to fight for something has been working as a motivator, as a challenge and, after all,
as a BIG distraction in my own mind. By this, I realise that I am the one
holding myself back and procrastinating my own life, my potential of life and
my time on earth to become the best of me.
This is a continuation of the self-corrective statements shared on the
DAY 17: Inflating my career - tendency to make things bigger than what they are
When
and as I see myself reacting to my own decisions based on the fear of failing
and the thoughts of anticipation I stop and I breathe. I realise that these
thoughts are not real and are not who I really are but they show me patterns
that I must deal with, understand where these fears come from and take the
decision to walk through it in self-direction and self-confidence to change who
I have become.
I
commit myself to stop fighting with my own mind and therefore to stop the
reaction in me – I realise that the anticipation thoughts show me my tendency
to complicate and to fear my own decisions. From here, I commit myself to trust
myself in my own decisions and to recreate my relationship with myself, this
time in actually taking decisions in common sense and then support me in living
my decisions in real-time. I realise that the hope for miracles of god is an
illusions and that I have the tools within me to make the best of my time on
earth.
I
commit myself to focus on my priorities and therefore I commit myself to direct
me to dedicate my time to my Process (self-care, my daily writing, my reading
of other Destonians, the DIP and my agreement with Joao), my job
(financial stability) and my self-expansion in my contribution to the world
system.
When
and as I see myself fearing and believing that I am going to fail because I
perceive me as not good enough for my own decisions, I stop and I breathe. I
realise that the fear of failing is based on a bunch of perceptions that I have
created about the various careers and that I have excluded my options based on
this same fear of failing without even starting it.
I
commit myself to not define me by my career, to stop the perceptions related to
specific careers and to start looking at the professional activities as
practical requirements in this world.
I
commit myself to stop hiding myself behind a name or a career because a career
is not more than me – I realise that everything that I do is me and that my
success in my career is the result of my dedication what I am doing, and this
“self-success” applies to everything that I do.
When
and as I see myself fearing my self-success, I stop and I breathe.
I
commit myself to not distract me with the fear of failure, nor with the idea of
competing with someone or fighting for something, but to rather live my decisions to its fullest and to
then dedicate myself to new things, instead of holding me back to the comfort
of that which I already know. I see now that I have been holding myself by
participating in the pattern of indecision, to the pattern of fear of changing
and to the distractions of the mind, so I realise that by walking these
patterns I am actually changing myself an changing my decisions, this time with
a starting point of self-honesty, self-direction, self-correction and self-realization.
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