Day 55: Self-Forgiveness and International Relations

Within the process of developing myself as a human being, I realised that it is not enough to simply grow up. I have always been interested in various social areas and wanted to help people, feeling good about myself when doing it and accepting good actions as altruism (as self-interest). How mislead was I about what’s really going on in this world and within each one of us I could not imagine...

Politics and international relations is the external projection of individual patterns within each one of us. Can you see how internal wars and bipolar minds are manifested in History? Hidden agendas and secret diplomacies based on personal fears, childhood distrust, patterns of inferiority, past mistakes, self-judgements and egocentrism. In politics, human life is completely disregarded and the whole set is a game without any kind of respect for human kind. 

As human beings we don’t really esteem ourselves and we are not educated to do so. Quite the contrary, our self-expression is suppressed and principles are replaced by competition. Forget the countries and the borders -- we are our own enemies. The human mind has the capacity to trap oneself with internal ghosts, persecutory delusions and all different kinds of paranoia. 

Now we understand why there's no peace to be remembered in this world. Human beings have never been in peace with themselves. 

Self-anger is accumulated in the physical body like a cancer and who we are is under layers of self-abuse. The trend is to corrupt oneself and others, unless something is done to stop such self-deception. The question here is to understand that there are no examples to follow. No matter how many books one reads or how many degrees and masters one can get from the so called best-universities-in-the-short-vision-academic-universe, politicians are educated to maintain the system as it is, like puppets on a string.

If I want to change anything in the world, I first must be willing to change myself: cleaning myself in order to be able to support others, in co-operation.

In order to finally stop such tendencies within me, I first must be willing to Stop and See. I do not have to become that which is not the best for me nor for All. I open up myself and I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in this world as the ego, as the need to be superior and to prove myself to others. I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to believe to be inferior to anyone else. I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to think that I deserve more than anyone else and by this I realise that I am one and equal with everyone. I put myself in another’s shoes and inequality is not the heritage I want to pass on. I am responsible for this moment in time, for each decision I make regardless of the scale of it. It doesn’t matter if I am deciding for two people or for a whole country: any decision must be the best for all. Otherwise it is not a decision, it is a deception.

I must be able to let go of all the ideas that I have created of a perfect future – such brainwashing was a limitation based on images of the perfect professional, the perfect lifestyle, the perfect diplomat, the perfect mother or the perfect teacher, self-limitations based on experiences and movies I watched. Such dreams are nightmares completely disconnected from reality. Knowledge and information require to be applied into practical answers, here and now, and that’s what a career should be made of.

All we have to do is to become the solution and stop existing as the problem.

For those of you who are now realising the man-made unfair system, let me tell you that learning from other people’s examples is not a school – it is a social condition based on memetics which we cannot escape to. We are not aware of the social, family and cultural influences absorbed throughout our childhood, not even the genetic background. This is accepted and promoted as the so called sins of the fathers passed on to thy children... We actually accept the excuse that “making mistakes is human and thus humanity is trapped forever”. We must start again, re-educating ourselves and become our own example.

On Remembrance Sunday, let’s do ourselves a favour and forgive ourselves for the human beings we have become, for the self-destruction and manifested wars we are still participating in. That will definitely change the world as ourselves for the best of who we are.