Day 9: Talking without walking

Here a reflection about the pattern of speaking, rather than walking the words I speak.

This happens when I don't hear myself and not stand in self-honesty. When I am not present, I am of the mind that mente (lies). But I am what I allow myself to become! Self-awareness is a must - breathing in, breathing out. Here I am again. But not yet stable. For many times that I said to myself I will be aware of every breath I take during 1 month. Words without a practical effect, since it hasn't happen yet.

Breathing in, breathing out....
Getting back to the physical does not require words. Breathing in, breathing out. I am here. All is here. Pain in my left side of the neck is here now.
Being the walk, without being programmed by the talk.
It happens to me to think about what I am going to do next - accumulation of ideas, thoughts, words that in the end will have little practical application but just illusions - I was not here anymore. I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to give my power away by distracting myself from the breath. I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself for believing I am not responsible for my own breath. I forgive myself for not allowing myself to be full responsible for stopping the mind. I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself for blaming anything outside myself for my own self-distraction.
The thoughts are extremely quick, which give a sensation of being overwhelmed, believing the thoughts are real. Writing this blog post now is real. The heartbeat is real. The movement of my fingers is real. My breath is real. Words without awareness and action are not real. For as long as I don't live the words I speak, I am not real-ly me as Life.

This makes me realize how little power we have been giving to ourselves --- still believing we are not responsible for our own existence... try this: breathe in, breathe out.